I wasn’t quite sure what to title this post, so I used both of the terms that were sticking with me. Over the last month or two, I’ve come to a realization. It’s something I’ve suspected for a very long time, but fought tooth and nail against because I didn’t like the sound or feel of it. And it’s something I don’t think others will like to hear really either, but then, I think they will have an inkling already that it’s most likely true, especially after the way the last 2 years have been. I’m not quite sure how to frame this, so I am just going to plunge in. Forgive me if it’s a bit jumbled, but I’m hoping for some coherence.
For a VERY long time now, most of my life really, one of my greatest desires was to found some kind of spiritual movement. While I have learned of many different ones, and there are a lot of great ones out there already, none of them quite had the “blend” I was looking for. Based on a lifetime of research and personal experience, I was just sure that whatever group or movement I founded would attract others like me, that they would want to be part of it, and help me to create something new, something better, more pertinent and effective – something that truly fit today’s day and age, but also brought forward many aspects of many older and ancient traditions that have been forgotten, lost or fallen into disuse.
And so I started trying to do just that – create some type of group – multiple times, with varying levels of time investment. Most recently, I was working on something called the “Order of Unifying Truth.” I had a really nice website put together, a forum on it, even paid to have a fancy logo made. And to clarify – there was never an intention that I would be some kind of great leader or anything – it wasn’t about some Jim Jones style cult deal lol. No, quite the opposite. I felt called to do this, and I wanted to bring people together so they could help figure out what we should do, because honestly, I wasn’t entirely sure. I was compelled to try though, and figured that once enough people put their minds and spirits together, something awesome would emerge, and we could start working to bring some much needed spiritual change into the word. And, just as the many attempts before, it flopped – totally.
After that last attempt, I started to accept the fact that perhaps the Universe was telling me that either this just wasn’t supposed to happen right now, I wasn’t the person to start it, or something similar. Thing is, I felt SO strongly compelled to do it, and had during varying periods in my life, that it was hard to accept that as a possibility. Why would I be so strongly compelled if it wasn’t meant to be? I still don’t really have an answer to that. But another answer of sorts has come to me over these last few months, one that I want to share, because I think it might help some others too who are experiencing similar feelings – that there is something we spiritual people should be “doing,” that we should be gathering and working together to affect change, or at the very least navigate this Apocalypse – and it really is feeling more and more each day like that’s where we are – together. And I think we are meant to navigate it together, as individuals – a type of guerilla spirituality if you will. Hence the title of this post. But what do I mean by that?
I’ve noticed a trend on Twitter, where I do most of my connecting with others of similar mind and spirit. That trend is certain people experiencing a crazy amount of synchronicities, and sometimes, as my friend Bob likes to describe, even “stacked,” such that they are one on top of another on top of another etc. They come in such a manner as to be truly remarkable, astonishing, unbelievable even. And it’s not just one or two people experiencing this. I have seen several posting about it in the last few months, and it seems like the number and frequency has been continually increasing. But what does this have to do with my epiphany?
In short, I think we are all experiencing symptoms of spiritual advancement, apocalypse (in true Greek meaning, revelation of hidden Truth), thinning of the veil, involvement of higher energies, etc, together, in the same time period, but as individuals, with experiences unique to each of us. We can all relate to a certain extent to each other, that we are experiencing this high strangeness – which also comes in the form of numerous, powerful, hyper-realistic dreams for some of us, don’t want to forget that part – but the actual specifics differ slightly for each person. And that makes sense, doesn’t it? We’ve each had unique, individual lives and experiences, no two of us have had the same, identical life. So we each have different things or combinations of things that speak to us, and in our own ways. Something that might be utterly profound and meaningful to me might seem mundane and unremarkable to someone else. It kinda’ goes back to the subjective experience conundrum with consciousness – we each have our own, but that does not mean they aren’t each real, valid, and powerful to us.
And this time we are in, I believe – and I don’t think it’s a stretch to propose at this time, given everything that’s happening – is a very singular time in the history of our species; a time foretold by prophets from many traditions; a time increasingly “foretold” by the prophets of our age – the climate scientists, epidemiologists, historians, etc; a time when human civilization itself seems to be on the brink of collapse, for a number of reasons. If ever there was a time to question the meaning of life, what’s really important, our mortality, it is now. Never before – at least not since I’ve been alive, have so many realistic threats been lined up and pointing directly at us, and with very little hope that humanity as a collective will come together, or even has the will or cares enough to come together to solve any one of them, let alone all of them. Add on the stuff going on in Ukraine, and yeah – getting pretty Apocalypse-y. So if ever there was a time for enough people to be distracted enough, and questioning enough, for something revelatory to happen, at least on an individual basis, it is now.
We are all ascending, together, but individually. The Internet has provided us the ability to connect and realize that indeed, it is a larger phenomenon, that we aren’t going cuckoo or just tripping out. But to try to create some actual group, organization, order, etc just isn’t what’s needed or meant to happen right now – at least not on this plane of existence, where in the past, groups like us have been hunted to extinction, imprisoned, burned at the stake – you get it. No, this time, we are to practice a form of spiritual guerilla warfare. And while I don’t really like to use that term, I think it’s important for those going through this to know that it’s not all “love and light” – at least that has not been my experience. There is a lot of shadow work to be done, I’ve been seeing a lot of posts on that, and it is a form of combat, with ourselves in a way. I think of the scene in Star Wars where Luke is fighting the hooded figure on Dagobah, only to realize that it’s himself. There’s a similar scene in the movie Excalibur where Lancelot is fighting himself. The collective shadow of humankind is struggling against healing and healers right now, and just as in wounded animal syndrome, is lashing out. But we all need to remember – the battle has already been won. It can’t – it doesn’t really want – to hurt us; it knows we are there to heal it, but it’s afraid – afraid of its own death.
And that’s why we all need to work on overcoming fear of death, if that is something we struggle with. There is no death, there is only transformation. We can even turn to science to back us up on this conjecture, the first law of thermodynamics – “energy can neither be created nor destroyed, only altered in form.” Christ talked of this fear – “Whosoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it.” In other words, by clinging on to this physical life and living in fear of losing it, we lose the *real* life, which does not end – or at least the awareness of it, which is, for all intents and purposes, the same thing.
So I hope that those who read this will take some comfort in knowing that you are not alone; that we are all together, even if not physically, or in some named or organized group; and there is a battle going on, but there is nothing to fear, because the battle has already been won; and besides, death isn’t real anyway – it’s just transformation. That being said, I fully intend to survive everything that’s going on and encourage everyone else to as well. It was said “he/she that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.” To me, that indicates that it’s going to be a rough road, but one that can be traversed and survived.
One final note – I understand the Biblical references could be a turnoff to some folks, and I get it. I spent the early years of my life hating Christ and Christianity. But the fact is, he got totally screwed over by the religion that was *supposed* to carry forth his teachings, and has done pretty much the exact opposite. Fact is, if you read the Gospels, read his words, he was spot on, and the greatest spiritual teacher ever, IMHO. I use the Bible passages because he spoke very clearly to folks like us, and it is a real loss if we throw out the baby with the bathwater.
I wish you all Many Blessings during this time, and look forward to continuing to share our experiences together, as individuals, on Twitter and through other communications. I leave you with these words, which always bring me comfort, and remind me – the battle has already been won.
“In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”