If Ye Believe…

…then works as these, and GREATER ye shall do. But I am tripping out a bit, almost having a “Mandela effect” moment lol, because I would have SWORN that the phrase was, “If ye believe as I believe, works as these and greater shall ye do.” But just now, when I looked it up, it says, “He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do.” Wow. That’s almost embarrassing, because I have used that phrase many times over my life as a ‘proof’ that Christ said we only needed to believe as he did, and we could do works like he did, or even greater. Which makes me wonder – is this a sign that I never knew the original phrase to begin with, and have been misquoting it my whole life? Or is it possible (and here we go into “woo woo” land as some would say lol) that what I remember it as is what it really, TRULY was, back before the editors got to it in the Council of Nicea? I know, that probably sounds a bit kooky. But then I just had something happen that seems to point to some innate knowledge, so maybe it’s not so kooky.

So today, I am watching a really interesting video on YouTube from William Henry. He’s one of the guys that features pretty prominently on Ancient Aliens. I’ve never watched or read any of his personal stuff, but this sounded interesting. It’s titled “_________” and the part I was watching today was talking about the Dove being the symbol of the “light body/spirit” descending to a person, and in particular, about the Grail myth. As he was talking, he started talking to this slide which had just come up:

So what exactly is so interesting about that? Well, in my past life (BS – Before Sobriety) I was a poet of sorts and wrote a lot of poetry, essays, etc. When I got sober, I trashed all of it (regrettably). But there are a few things I wrote that I have always remembered. And one of those is this little ditty:

Three is one,

One is three.

Three in one reality.

Now I can’t absolutely guarantee that I had never seen anything like what is written in that screen cap from above, but I don’t consciously remember. And it seems that when I did come up with that, it felt kind of “new” – at least to me. If, IF that is the case, then it would provide a pretty good example for knowledge of something that came directly to me via some manner other than reading in a book, etc.

And if that is the case, then is it possible that the actual thing Christ said was closer to what I “remember” it as being? But then I am getting off track, as that wasn’t what I was really going to talk about anyway. But what I had planned on talking about was predicated on the saying being what I remember it as. So for the sake of this, let’s pretend that’s what Christ really meant lol.

A lot of interesting scientific articles have been coming out about things that were seemingly impossible, unbelievable, or improbable not all that long ago. And some of these things, if taken together with other things and an open, mystical mind lead to some VERY intriguing possibilities. The one I am thinking about at this moment is the spontaneous mutation of DNA via quantum processes:


The gist of that article is that DNA can mutate spontaneously as a result of quantum processes and that, although that can definitely result in disease, “in some scenarios, point mutations can also be beneficial.” So how big of a leap is it to think that we could literally alter our own DNA? And perhaps a part of that is simply BELIEVING that we can. And this article provides that little gem of belief – that little seed that could grow into something truly amazing. I have lots more to say about this, but will continue in another post.

A Prayer to the Divine Feminine

All gratitude,
All reverence,
All compassion,
All love to you, Great Mother.

Long have you been cast aside,
Long have you pushed down,
Many times have you burned at the stake.
But today, I stand –
To thank you,
To honor you,
To bless you,
To defend you,
And to proclaim your Presence within,
And Interconnecting
All that is.

Let all those who have forgotten, Remember.
Let those who have been led astray
Be guided by the Light of your Infinite Love
Back into the heart of the All.

Let today, and every day
Be the day
That you are restored to
Your rightful Place –
In the Heavens,
In the Earth,
And in the hearts and minds
Of all humankind.

I thank you,
I love you,
And I praise you – always!

An Open Letter to Materialists

Anyone who really knows me knows that I am a pretty spiritual person. But I am also a very scientifically-minded one, and don’t believe in extraordinary things easily, without investigation. My personal beliefs have been hard won, and it is only based on my personal experiences with what I like to think of as a Higher Power or Creative Intelligence that I believe as strongly as I do. I understand a lot of people don’t believe in something like that, and I don’t begrudge or think less of them, nor do I try to convince them that there is a higher power.

That being said, I have spent many, many hours of my life reading and learning about quantum physics, consciousness, the origin of life and intelligence, DNA – you know, light subjects like that lol. And a majority of those who claim to be scientists or scientifically-minded like to espouse their beliefs that there is no God, that it’s silly or even ignorant to believe in one, and tend to patronize or talk down to people who do believe in one. When asked “what or who created the big bang?” or “how do you explain the counter-intuitive behavior of particles at the quantum level?” or other hard to answer questions, they tend to fall back on the ‘many worlds’ hypothesis, which states that for every single interaction in the world, in the universe, an entirely new universe splits off for each different choice or option that could be made.

So if you are out car shopping, and can’t decide on what car to buy, there is a universe that splits off where you bought a Kia, one that splits off where you bought a Ford, one that splits off where you bought a Dodge, ad infinitum… and all of this so they can avoid a possible conclusion that the observer effect can suggest, that it is consciousness that is primary, and that matter is a resultant property of it – not the other way around. To some, this suggests that there is something more than material reality, some underlying force or Source of consciousness, and that Source is something some ancients called God, others called Brahman, still others called The Great Spirit, etc.

It is the old dualism vs materialism debate, and the materialists claim victory and think that dualists are silly, ignorant, or just haven’t learned enough to know the “truth.” But to this, I like to ask whatever happened to Occam’s Razor – the postulate that states for a number of different hypotheses provided to explain an observed behavior, the simplest one, with the least assumptions necessary is the most likely correct one? Is it really easier to believe that there are an infinite number of universes for every single possible outcome for any interaction? Or is it simpler to believe that there is some higher power or creative intelligence, some force that we do not completely understand that underlies or guides and shapes our reality?

I like the old analogy of a tornado rolling through a junkyard and after passing, a perfect 747 jet is sitting there, ready to fly into the air. That is rather the explanation that we are required to believe to avoid believing in God. Oh, but of course there are an infinite number of universes in which that tornado went through that junkyard, and we just HAPPEN to live in the one where it created the jumbo jet. Ok. What do we observe in our world? Do complex structures like airplanes, skyscrapers, particle colliders just arise out of random interactions? Do I believe that if we threw a bunch of steel and other materials down, in a billion years they would? No, I don’t, and that’s not what I observe. Complex systems in this world have creators, and as someone who creates them for a living, I have a special appreciation for them. And to be sure, I have argued against the materialists whenever possible. But you know what, I’m tired of arguing.

I believe what I believe based not only on silly superstitions, or what I’ve read, or what people have told me, but on my personal experiences and learning over my life. And I understand that is the case for every one of us – we each have our own individual experience, shaped by our beliefs, our aspirations, our environments, our interactions with the people in our lives, our mental health, our physical health, etc. There are just so many factors. And instead of trying to convince materialists, I pray for them, and give thanks for the belief I do have. Because I realize it is a gift. And I would much rather live my life, a life filled with both the knowledge and appreciation of scientific theories as well as the wonder and awe of belief in something greater, than one empty or devoid of that.

So to all those materialists out there, I say blessings to you. I will not try to dissuade you from your beliefs, nor will I look down on nor patronize you. And I ask the same courtesy of you : please don’t look down on or patronize me. Let us each be free to believe as we do, without supposition or assumptions about intelligence. Some pretty intelligent people have believed in God throughout mankind’s history, and just because we are so darned smart now, there’s no reason – no valid reason – to think that can’t still be the case.

The Principle of Correspondence – aka Coin-incidences

I posted something on Facebook today about 2 recent scientific articles: one how quantum fluctuations can cause changes in our DNA, and the other about the hypothesis that the entire universe is one big neural network.



Now of course, because I am who I am, I made the following comments in that post:

“I’m guessing hardcore materialists are just hating this. It’s getting harder and harder to simply dismiss as “nonsense” some of the metaphysical concepts and ideas that mystics have held for a long time. The thought that spontaneous mutations could occur in our DNA related to quantum effects. At what point do the materialists finally give us mystics some credit for understanding some things about reality that they have vociferously denied as being true, or even possible, for hundreds, if not thousands of years now..?”

I naively thought that because of nature of these two articles, and just how much they upend much of what we have been taught (at least as I have understood it about science and physics), not to mention the philosophical implications of both, that a comment like that would be justified, perhaps even enough that the materialists would think to themselves, “You know, he’s got a point.” But alas, I do have a number of science-y people as friends on Facebook, most of whom I have never actually met, so it was not surprising that one of them said, “It’s still physics.” And in fairness, he was correct. At least individually, those topics are in the realm of physics. But what if you start connecting them? What if you make the leap to changing your very DNA by using some of the processing power of that universal neural network to affect some directed quantum fluctuations – what about that?

Sidebar here – I am a bit hypocritical in my selecting of “friends” on Facebook. (Get ready for a comment that almost burns my fingertips coming out lol). I honestly can’t stand most New Age-y or metaphysical type people on there, and actually PREFER (God help me, I can’t believe I am saying this) those materialist-science-physics-math type people. And why is that, you ask? Because as much as I love mysticism and metaphysics, and as much as some people might not realize it about me – at least those on social media who don’t really know me – I am a very scientifically-minded person, and don’t appreciate the full-blown New Age type stuff when it has absolutely no basis in any kind of logic or reasoning. Now to be sure, there are some people I know/have known who are very much that way, but are grounded enough in this reality and logical enough to realize the boundaries of how much belief to put in some stuff, and how much work to put into understanding other stuff. Strange as it may sound, it’s easier for me to handle the atheistic geniuses than the super-mystical folks of little scientific knowledge. I guess I feel like I can still learn something from the former, while the latter – again, not all, but most – don’t seem to offer much in the way of true knowledge.

I didn’t know if this was all going to tie in, but it does. Because the one thing that has become the most clear to me on my path of mysticism is that, while there are certainly many teachings, practices, ideas, writings, etc that can help one along their journey, the path is always individual, and the experiences unique to the person. And while many scientific theories can be proven, and that’s what gives materialists the warm fuzzies – when something can be “proven” – most of the theories, ideas, laws of the mystics, e.g. the 7 Hermetic Principles, can’t be proven like one can prove that water is made of hydrogen and oxygen by some experiment, or prove that gravity is real by taking measurements and comparing them against certain formulas. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be proven at all – it just means that the only proof we can get is the proof to ourselves. I think there are instances, and there were probably more in days long past, when an adept could “prove” in some sense to a student the reality of a certain principle or law. But these days, most often, we have to settle for obtaining our own proof, knowing that most other people probably won’t believe us – especially those materialists.

Today, I had one of those experiences that is proof to me of the Law of Correspondence, of the ubiquity of the coin-incidence. Of course, it’s more than easy enough to write it off as mere coincidence, and state that I am seeing and making more of a connection that is really just a random chance occurrence, that means absolutely nothing. But to me, in the theoretical framework by which I live and interpret my life, it is proof indeed.

We went to an antique store today, and I decided to wear a new pendant I got recently that I LOVE – a cool Isis pendant:

I’ve been directing more conscious attention on amulets that reflect the Divine Feminine. I realized a little while ago that, for as much as I profess my love for and defense of the Goddess principle, I really don’t have any amulets that reflect that. So I got that Isis one and another – Triple Goddess Tree of Life with Pentacle – off of Amazon.

Today, as I am walking through the antique shop, I look in a glass case and see a cool bumper sticker (which is kinda’ cool in and of itself, as I have been looking for a new bumper sticker for my truck to take the place of the “Any Functioning Adult 2020” one I had) that said “Ankh if you love Isis” – and this is what the right side of it looks like:

Now, perhaps if someone were to work up the mathematical probability of me wearing an Isis pendant and there being something in the store with Isis on it, it wouldn’t appear to be so spectacular a coincidence. But when you figure that I had been wanting a bumper sticker for my truck too, and that the image of Isis matches almost perfectly the one on my pendant – well, for me, that gets into the realm of coin-incidence, and Correspondence. In the framework I live in, this is the Universe speaking directly to me, affirming my decision to focus more attention on the Divine Feminine, and providing yet another amulet/decoration with said feminine/Goddess iconography for me to have in my experience to draw attention, thought and concentration.

Now, can I “prove” to someone else this is what’s happening? Of course not – and especially not a materialist. Would I even TRY to? Hell no, not anymore! Lol. When I was younger, oh yes, I would – at length! And I would not give up. But time, age and experience have shown me that one simply cannot prove anything to anyone else – especially something like this. And in today’s world, rife with mis and disinformation, it is even more difficult. And besides, it is of no consequence to me that anyone else believes anything really. Oh, I used to view myself as a guru, a spiritual warrior of sorts, who was going to go out there and show everyone the Truth! I was going to be the “Second Coming” and save the ignorant human race from itself by espousing the Timeless Doctrine of Oneness as no one had before… Ahahahahaha! Hilarious, right? And my 24 year old self would be SOOOO pissed to read this! Lol. Anyone who knew me back then would agree. I was on fire, and was going to save the world. Alas, the folly of youth.

Today, I know that there is a greater than 0 chance – MUCH greater – that the majority of people don’t want the same thing I want, and I probably don’t want the same thing they do. And that’s ok – we each have to walk our own path. But much to my pleasant surprise, that doesn’t mean that people like me can’t still make great progress on the path of the mystic; it doesn’t mean we can’t still experience some magic; it doesn’t mean that there is no hope at all for us, or that we will have to wait for another lifetime to reach that light shining in the mist. I used to think that was the case – that I was born out of time, and there was no chance I would ever experience the life of the mystic I so desired.

But there has always been a part of me, deep inside, that flat out REFUSES to give up! I have been through many dark nights of the soul, and many times have I sworn off this path – most recently last year, after we found out we couldn’t go to New York for our daughter’s wedding. I angrily swept my hand across my altar, pushing everything onto the floor and cursing the very idea that I believed in something more. It was all bullshit, and I was DONE believing.

Until the next day, when I put everything right back up, even though I didn’t even really believe in it still. Because somewhere, deep inside, something – something that has called me onward my whole life, even when I literally hate it and am so pissed off for it – once again took hold of me and one by one, I replaced every stone, every feather, every statue, every little piece on my altar. I have almost resigned myself to the fact that there is no getting rid of that part, no exorcising it, and no keeping it quiet or inactive. I think it is more me than I am, if that makes sense at all. And so, when people make comments about how something is just “physics,” or how they don’t believe all that “New Age hooey,” or whatever – I get it, I really do.

But I have lived a life of coin-incidences. And even though I consider myself a very scientifically-minded person, work as a software developer (I get logic, like real, actual logic), and understand the scientific method and greatly appreciate it, I am a mystic at heart – always have been, and apparently, always will be. And I am ok with that. Because I get the best of both worlds. I can appreciate science, work in a field that requires that kind of logical thinking, and appreciate the theories and discoveries of science. At the same time, I can experience coin-incidences and feel the deeper meaning of them, not needing any “proof;” I can feel the Universe calling me on, opening doors of perception and opportunity; and I can understand and see the 7 Hermetic Principles at work in my life. For this, and so much more, I am eternally grateful.

Not feeling it today

That pretty much sums up my feelings today. Just not feeling it. By “it,” I mean the desire to do anything at all to participate in this reality. No, I think I have just about had my fill of stupidity, ignorance, mundanity, pettiness, etc etc. And I am talking about work, politics, the media, the pandemic – just everything. I am just fed up.

Of course it’s not anything new to feel this way. I guess you could consider it the “dark night of the soul’s” evil cousin or something. Instead of being depressed and suicidal, it’s angry and homicidal lol. I don’t know if other mystics in the past felt this or not…? I haven’t read much about it. I can guess that Jesus did, the whole money changers in the Temple business. But I don’t know about others.

I just get SOOOO tired of dealing with the overall ignorance of people, businesses, governments, societies, religions, just everything and most everyone. Of course there are the very few people who “get it,” but unfortunately, not nearly enough to affect any real change at this point. It’s like we just have to keep putting up with this shit, eon after eon after eon. Ugh.

This is one time when being an “old soul” really sucks. It’s like, “Haven’t we already been through all this, like THOUSANDS of times? Why is all this still an issue/question?” And of course, we have to keep on working to pay them bills – not like there is any real freedom here in the U S and A, or anywhere really.

And to be certain, I have it very lucky. I have a very good life to whine and complain about – better than I deserve. Still, I am just sick of the stupidity and ignorance. How much longer? Really???