What’s really going on – continued

Part II – The antichrist and the Great Deception

I remember going to see the movie “The Man Who Saw Tomorrow” when I was a kid, and it scared the crap out of me. It was about the prophecies of Nostradamus, narrated by Orson Welles, and it really shook me up. Especially the last parts, about the antichrist(s) and the end of the world. Apparently, according the the interpreters, Nostradamus predicted there would be 3 “antichrists”: Napoleon, Hitler, and the last one, who was yet to come, and would bring on Armageddon. Now Napoleon seemed a little suspect to me, even as a kid. Hitler, that one seemed plausible, and according to the movie, Nostradamus used the word “Hister,” which is pretty darned close. The third one was predicted to “rise in the east” and would bring on the great battle of Armageddon, which would wipe out most life on earth. They gave a few other clues as to who they thought it might be in the movie, and it was fairly clear they suspected it would be someone from the Middle East, or maybe even China. And looking from the perspective of a Westerner, that IS where the antichrist would come from, right?

And so began a little hobby of trying to figure out who the antichrist would be, where he would come from. Had he already been born? Was he in Iran maybe? They were always doing “bad” stuff, being mean and calling us the “great Satan.” Or what about China? All those communists, intent on destroying all us God-fearing Christians in the U S and A. It’s a hobby that used to be really popular back in the 70’s and 80’s among many Christians, but strangely, seems to have waned quite a bit. I’m not sure if they just got tired of looking, figured it out and didn’t tell me, or just don’t care anymore (I’m betting on this last one), but the whole game of trying to figure out who the antichrist is or would be seems to have ended – and just when I figured it out!

Another concept that pervades Christianity is “the Great Deception.” There are different interpretations of it, but most of them revolve around someone or some group of people coming, proclaiming themselves to be Christ, when in reality, they are just the opposite, false “messiahs,” and it the devil would be orchestrating all of this. So there is another level to the game, which is keeping your eyes and ears peeled, and trying to figure out who the real messiah is among all the false ones that will come. So now it gets REALLY tough, because you have all these false prophets, you have the antichrist coming, and the devil pulling all the strings. Wow – that’s a lot to keep anyone guessing! And if at this point, you are starting to have a, “Waaiiitttt…..” moment, that’s good – that means you are seeing that the great deception IS the great deception. And the false prophets and the antichrist? Well, let’s just take a step back and look at it logically.

Christ gave 2, yes TWO commandments supposedly while he was here:

Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment.

And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.” ~ Matthew 22: 37-40

Now it seems pretty clear therefore, that an antichrist would be someone who broke, nay, trashed, those two commandments, and encouraged everyone else too as well.

And a brief disclaimer here: when Jesus spoke of God in the Bible, it was NOT the god that most Christians pray to, at least not the fundamentalists ones. I think if Christ saw what Christianity had become, he would be appalled. No, the God Christ spoke of was Source – the One from which the Many came; the God that is the Spirit that interconnects and gives meaning to all Life – THAT God. And that God is not some guy in a white robe casting down judgements – that God is Energy, is Love. I digress a bit, but it’s important to make the point that the commandment fits all religions and spiritual traditions: Love the Creator, God, Goddess, Allah, Jehovah, the One, Source, Buddha nature, Mother Earth, whatever – with all your heart.

As hard as that first commandment is, especially in today’s day and age when people are so sick of the god that has brought so much war and misery to mankind that they are turning towards atheism in droves, that second commandment – THAT is a doozy, even for the best of us: to love our neighbor as ourselves. And to be certain, I’m pretty sure by “neighbor” Christ meant every single person we came into contact with. In today’s day and age, that could be extended globally, as we are aware of billions of ‘neighbors’ here on planet earth. And what about all the other living creatures – the plants, trees, birds, bees, dolphins, wolves, cows, insects – everything. Christ didn’t say “love other people” as yourself. He said neighbor. And even Mother Earth herself is a neighbor. So that is the commandment – to love literally everyone and everything as we love ourselves. Wow. THAT is a tough one. But that isn’t to say we can’t try, and to be sure, there are some people who have given some good examples through history of what that might look like.

Ok, ok, so I have waxed philosophic and been on my soapbox, but at this point, even I am asking myself, “Give it up dude! Who is the antichrist?” In one word, the antichrist is


That one word encapsulates who, what the antichrist is. It’s not any one person, it’s not some guy from Afghanistan, Iran, or China. It’s not even Donald Trump (though he certainly channels division and hatred for “others” quite well, an effective manifestation of those forces). The antichrist is an archetype, and it has been with humankind from the beginning. It is, quite simply, apathy: a total lack of caring for anyone, or anything, including – and ESPECIALLY – one’s self. Just think about how pervasive depression and self-loathing are, especially here in the west. It’s endemic, and I can’t think of anyone – anyone who actually cares about anything anyway – that hasn’t experienced some kind of deep depression in their lives. And if we hate ourselves, don’t love ourselves at all, then we are actually fulfilling that second commandment in a perverse way – we are (not) loving our neighbors as we (don’t) love ourselves. What better way for an antichrist to accomplish its mission? Make people hate themselves, and the commandment can be followed. We all ‘love’ each other as we ‘love’ ourselves.

And the same applies to God. It’s popular these days to rail against religion, to blame it for all of the problems in the world, especially the big 3 – Christianity, Judaism, and Islam – and honestly, I have been on that bandwagon too in my life. How many millions of people have been killed, are still being killed, in the name of “god”..? Way too many. So when someone is “commanded” to love God, they are like, “Hell no, I’m not loving that fantasy concept that has caused so much misery on this planet.” Add on to that the fact that you can’t PROVE that God exists, and you have a perfect recipe for throwing that first commandment right out the window. And the tendency of people to now worship science – and I LOVE science, btw – as a religion in its own right, has made it even more challenging for people to believe in a creator, especially those who do like it, because we are viewed as “naive,” foolish, or ignorant for believing in God. It’s either/or – either you believe in science or you believe in God – can’t do both and be taken seriously.

So where does that leave us? Well, I would say “mission accomplished” for ye olde antichrist, wouldn’t you? People filled with apathy, selfishness and self loathing certainly aren’t capable of, or even interested in loving any of their neighbors, outside of their own tribes. And love God? Only if you want to be seen as silly and ignorant, because no truly intelligent or rational person can believe in God. And what happens when you have a dynamic like that at play?

You get the 4 horsemen having a field day. You get a pandemic spreading around the world because a lot of people just don’t care enough to be bothered to wear a mask, it’s just “too much” to ask of them. And hey, if they haven’t gotten sick, it must be a hoax, or overblown. Never mind that 4 million people have died from covid – 4,000,000.

You get a climate changing so rapidly that even the biggest skeptics are getting a bit freaked out – fire burning in the sky, causing the high temperature in Canada – CANADA – to reach 121F. And why? Because most people just don’t care enough to make any real changes, especially if it doesn’t impact them directly. To be fair, more than the apathy of people, GREED of the money changers has caused climate change. I made a post on Twitter lately about that whole dynamic. There is a reason that the one time Christ got really pissed and violent in the Bible is when he tossed the money changers out of the temple.

You get inequality the likes of which has never been seen. People in some poor countries are literally dying to get vaccines, but their nations simply can’t afford it, while you have doses spoiling in rich nations like the US because some people simply don’t want them. And somehow, we think that we can just let those nations rot basically, and it won’t affect us, we will be ok.

I could go on, but I don’t think it’s necessary really. The antichrist is an archetype that, more than anything, wants us to hate ourselves. Because when we do that, the commandments can be fulfilled without any opposition. We are fulfilling the Law in a very sick way, following the commandments to a “t.” And the great deception is that each and every one of us has a bit of the antichrist in us – it is within us all to manifest, to bring forth either the Christ, or the opposite. And to bring that Christ forth, we need to do the hardest thing of all – we need to love ourselves. The old adage, “Physician, heal thyself” is more a plea than request at this point.

So before we can even begin the Great Work of loving all people, loving all beings, loving Mother Earth, we need to begin the GREATEST work, which is loving ourselves. Turns out, all those cheesy cliches about “you can’t love someone else if you don’t love yourself” aren’t so cheesy – they are true. And this is a deeper love than just self-help can provide. Because we have to connect with all the pain that humanity has caused – we have to acknowledge it, ask the spirits of those who have been harmed – human, animal, plant, etc – for forgiveness, forgive ourselves and our ancestors, and pledge to not do harm going forward. It is a process, a journey, and a path not many would wish to walk. But if we are to truly be what I believe we were created to be, our highest selves, the manifestation and the embodiment of Christ’s Love, it is the only journey that really matters. It is the Quest that leads to the Holy Grail, and I hope that you will join me on it. I am nowhere near reaching the goal, as is evidenced by plenty of my other posts – but I will strive onward, and hope others will as well. We may not be able to save everyone, but if we can save ourselves, that might just be enough. Peace and Blessings on your journey…

Another dark night of the soul –

Hopefully this one doesn’t last as long as some have. But this one is pretty brutal, and to be fair, I brought it on myself.

After the last few weeks of temperature records being shattered in Canada and the Pacific Northwest, forest fires, articles about megadrought in the West, I picked at the scab by watching some more in depth videos about the situation, and they were extremely depressing. And these are from credible sources, science-based – not conspiracy bullshit or anything like that. Here are just a few of the ones I watched:

Now it probably wasn’t the best idea to watch these when I was already feeling a bit down, but hiding from the brutal truth is a big part of what got us where we are now. And we knew this was coming. It’s not like news or anything. Because as much as the Republicans and their far-right, Fox News loving, Trump worshipping zombies try to deny that human induced climate change is occurring, it most certainly is – and it is ALREADY having devastating impacts – impacts that will only get worse as time goes on.

The thing, as the report highlighted in one of those videos makes abundantly clear, the wealthy elite will be the LEAST affected by climate change. Those responsible for most of the actual damage to the climate will suffer the least, while those in developing countries and other poor people who contributed little to it will suffer the most. Once again, the concept of fairness is brutalized, and once again, those who don’t really deserve to suffer any more, will. And those who ought to pay SOME kind of karmic debt for what they have done, or not done, will glide through life enjoyably.

Now I understand the whole spiritual side of the equation, the whole gather not treasures on earth but in heaven, and the idea that eventually, EVENTUALLY, those who have done so much harm will get their just dues. But every now and again, I have my doubts about that – I lose my faith, in God, in myself, and DEFINITELY in humanity. I wonder if I am just bullshitting myself, if all spiritual people aren’t, just to make ourselves feel better and keep from killing ourselves to escape this cruel, cruel world.

And to be sure, it is a very cruel world, especially for a sensitive person, which I have always been. I think back to the teasing and bullying I experienced as a child, and while one can say, “Yes, but they were just kids, they didn’t know any better” – why did I know better? Why did I and a lot of other kids NOT do that kind of stuff? And the bullying, teasing, and overall cruelty continues on in life, and is actually rewarded. I deal with it in my job now, and do you think anyone – even in the 15K employee corporation I work in – stands up to the bullies? No, because they produce great ROI, and that’s what matters. The others go into police work or similar professions where they can abuse people with relative impunity. Or maybe even Wall Street, or hedge funds, or lobbying – you know, professions where being brutal, uncaring, and not giving a shit about people, their feelings, their livelihoods – where that is REWARDED. That’s ‘Murica, that’s freedumb, that’s capitalism. Yay.

This world is just no place for a kind soul, for a sensitive person, for a caring human being. It eats people like us up and spits us out. Oh sure, there are plenty of good people out there doing good things, and God bless them all. And there are those who are stronger than I, that’s for sure. But for some of us, this shit just gets to be too much sometimes – just the brutal ignorance. It gets really old. I am trying to get my faith back, get some hope back, some little grain of optimism. But it’s really hard right now. When I go to someplace wearing a mask and get scornful looks from some people – like, really? Why the fuck do they even care? What is it doing to them? The stupidity, selfishness, cruelty, tribalism, willful ignorance – it’s just crippling sometimes. I thought when the Orange Messiah lost the election, we could be over that. But oh no, not at all. His grip remains strong as ever, and people still believe the lies and bullshit he peddles. Just sickening. And to be sure, there are people on the other side, the left, who are going too far that way. The whole political correctness movement has gone way too far, and sometimes, it’s impossible to even know what to say without offending someone. But I would rather err on the side of being too conscientious then just not giving a shit – telling people to “Deal with it!”

I probably won’t do a lot of public posting for a while. There aren’t many people who read this crap anyway, so it won’t be any big loss. I used to hope to gain some notoriety, or some kind of voice in the world. But this spiritual shit doesn’t “sell.” People don’t care, don’t want to hear what someone says about it – not someone like me anyway. It’s time to slink away to the shadows again, and leave the people to their world. I will just hang on to what little sanity or hope I have, until I can make it to the other side of this dark night.

Something in the air…

And not just UFOs.

I had an extremely hard time getting to sleep last night. I tossed and turned until well after midnight. I tried the things that often work for me and that I always recommend to others: practiced deep breathing, listened to some binaural meditation music, tried to meditate. But there was a very unsettled, almost chaotic energy around and in me it seemed. I finally drifted off sometime after 12:30am.

I have been experiencing some difficulties at work that have caused me to not like my job very much. Up until this last 6 months or so, I have loved it, and my boss loves me. But I have been working with an extremely difficult, unappreciative, and unreasonable internal client who has made me miserable. I actually dread signing on recently. After 3 hours of trying to work, I just couldn’t do it. I sent an email out to the team saying I wasn’t feeling well – and I was not – and I was taking a sick day. I am very blessed to be able to do so, and don’t take the opportunity for granted. I worked in blue collar jobs for many, many years, and know a lot of people don’t have this luxury.

I posted a little blurb about it on Twitter – not necessarily the work stuff, just about the general feeling of malaise. Nothing too in depth or anything. I was a bit stunned to see just how many other people are in that same exact place (maybe not about a job necessarily) as I – feeing tired, demoralized, a bit hopeless, deflated. And to be certain, it’s not just about the job. No, this feeling runs much deeper. There is just a general feeling of dissociation, which for me, is rather depressing. I like feeling ‘connected,’ and I just don’t today. From the many replies I got on Twitter, a lot of other people, at least among the little community I inhabit, aren’t either.

I will write more later – have to run to a doctor’s appt now with my pain management specialist. Just thought I would put this out there to capture the moment.

Interlude – a Vision, an Unexpected Word

Saturday morning, I was laying in bed, thinking about some of the events of the past week or so. Since the pandemic started, I have been telecommuting, and as a result, have had more time in the morning – no more long drive to work each day. So I have gotten back into a practice of regular prayer and/or meditation each morning before getting out of bed. It’s been one of the more positive things that has come from a tough situation for the world, and I am committing to continuing, even if I do go back into the office someday. Although at this point, it seems that’s not likely. Our company, as many others, has (FINALLY) instituted some full-time telecommuting options, and although I was initially reluctant about it, I love it now. But I digress –

So as I lay there, I was starting to try to meditate, but as I said – was thinking about some of the events that have been going on – in particular, the astonishing heat wave that hit the Pacific Northwest and Canada, and even more specifically, what happened in the poor town of Lytton, CA. They hit the ALL TIME high temperature for the country, ever, last Tuesday of 121F. Just unbelievable. I live in Phoenix, AZ, and that’s hot for HERE. But that’s in CANADA, the Great White North. To make matters worse, and even more tragically incredible, a number of forest fires started, and ended up basically incinerating the little town of Lytton. The video is just surreal. My heart goes out to those people, and the animals, nature. So, so sad.


And if THAT wasn’t enough, there was the “lightning siege” from the storm clouds created from the smoke from the fires, the pipeline fire in the Gulf of Mexico – the ocean on fire – and then, an X-class flare from the sun. It was like Spirit/Mother Nature/The Universe/Divine Presence is telling us, “time is up – here comes the pain.”

As those thoughts ran through my mind, I could feel a cloud of darkness descending on me. It was like I was in the middle of forest fire myself, in my mind, and the clouds of fear and destruction were starting to smother me. It’s always hard to describe something like this, but I truly felt some fear, and a lot of anxiety as the light got fainter and fainter, and I was enveloped by the blackness. It makes me think that must be similar to what it’s like to lose consciousness before dying – the last embers of the light of awareness dimming.

And to be sure, I had always told myself that I wasn’t afraid to die. I have been deeply spiritual for most of my life, and truly believe (at least I think, or thought, or hope) that physical death is not the end – that our spirits live on. I know one day I will pass from this plane of existence, and I have made peace with the Divine Presence, I am ok with my life. So I thought I was ok to face death. But here, in this dark space I was experiencing, it was something different. Because I wasn’t just thinking about my death – I was thinking about Death with a capital D – like the death of everybody, all life on the planet, my kids not having a future, my grandkids. And I was NOT ready for that. And as much as I thought I was ready to face my own end, I realized that I was not – at least not on those terms. I didn’t- I don’t – want to die, especially not in such a hellish end as was suffocating me. And then, as I felt the darkness completely envelop me, and all hope slip away, a word FLASHED into my mind, out of nowhere, in capital letters. And the second it did, light came rushing in, the darkness receded, the light grew stronger and stronger, and I knew I was ‘saved.’ And what was that word?


Yes – SELFISHNESS. Not ‘Love,’ or ‘Truth,’ or ‘Abracadabra,’ or ‘Om,’ or some other sacred or power word; no, it was selfishness. And there was no doubt – that word banished the darkness like nobody’s business! And it wasn’t like some kind of violent thing or battle, it was just a burst of light that filled the darkness, and grew brighter and brighter, until there was no darkness.

Of course it wasn’t long before my conscious mind latched onto the situation, and was like, “What the..?! Selfishness? Really???” I was really confused, I just didn’t understand how a word like that, a word with negative connotations could have power like that. And I have to say here, that of all things I cannot STAND to be called, selfish is one of the biggest. I can’t stand selfish people, and the term itself to me is one of the worst things a person can be called. So that alone is proof that word did NOT come from me – that is NOT the word I would have used, and I just did not understand it.

So I lay there, pondering it, hoping to get some insight. Slowly, it started to come to me, that I was very selfish, with my life, in that I viewed it – like, my literal life, the life force that causes me to draw breath and live – as mine, and I didn’t want to lose it, to have it taken away from me, by God/Source/Universe, or anyone or anything else. I thought I was ok dying, and maybe 40 years from now, on a piece of land up in the mountains, all relaxed with my kids and grandkids at my side – yeah, maybe. But here, in this time, in some kind of apocalyptic climate crisis, one that could very well push the human species to extinction, and rob my kids and grandkids, and my friends’ kids and grandkids of their futures – no, I wasn’t ready for this. This life – our lives – were OURS, and I was clinging tighter to it than I ever imagined.

Still, this didn’t sit real well with me, but I realized it was true. I have been thinking about it more since it happened, and the more I do, the more it makes sense – the more I see how it ties in with the teachings of the great spiritual masters. The Buddha taught about overcoming attachment – how it alone was the cause of all suffering. And what greater attachment could one have than to their own life? Oh sure, I like to think I am ok with whatever happens, but if truly honest with myself, I still struggle with that – and just might always. I’ve also been thinking back to that verse in the Bible, “Whosoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it.” In some translations, it says “whoever clings to his life.” Wow… I am starting to see what all that stuff was really about – it was far more literal than I ever imagined. The Bible is so often, in fact mostly, allegorical. But this – this is pretty straightforward.

I guess the reason that word banished the darkness then was because it reminded me that life, even the one I am enjoying as this consciousness in this physical vehicle, is not mine. And I need to stop fooling myself into THINKING that I understand that and am good with it, and really work on BELIEVING that, in my innermost self. I need to make peace with that fact, and let go of the selfishness of thinking that it’s mine. And I need to let go of my thoughts, hopes and dreams about the way everything should go. Because honestly, they are selfish too. I don’t want to see all that destruction, the pain, the suffering, the loss of life and beauty. But again, I don’t want to see it because it causes me pain, and sadness, grief. Of course I care about the lives and livelihoods of other living things – I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t. Love of all life is a huge part of who I am, and I will never lose that. But it has to be balanced with acceptance – with letting go of attachment – attachment to how things should go for everyone and everything else.

And so this, THIS is the real cross to bear then, isn’t it? Knowing that our freedom is in letting go of attachment to life – to our life, to all life – all while carrying deep love for all of life, feeling the pain of what could have been, and knowing that it is not in our power, or even in the best interest of those suffering necessarily on a spiritual level, to stop it. Now I saw a post the other day, something about a person saying that people who had it rough in this life ‘deserved’ it based on their past karma, and I am NOT about that. It is not for me to say. And I’m not saying that if people are suffering, I am just going to let them suffer while thinking, “It’s God’s will, I shouldn’t do anything.” Hell no! I don’t operate like that. I help people, and believe EVERYONE is worth saving. The acceptance I am speaking about is the acceptance that, as much as I want to save everyone and everything – and I SO do, I just love this planet, it’s people, it’s wildlife, ugh – I cannot. Buddha couldn’t do it, Christ couldn’t do it, Gandhi couldn’t do it, MLK couldn’t do it – I can’t do it. And that is a bitter pill to swallow. It is acceptance in its highest form.

So what does that mean practically speaking? How can I implement that wisdom in my life to improve myself spiritually? That’s what I’m working on now. I thought I had already been down this path, learned the lessons, and moved onward up the mountain. But now I find myself at a very similar vista, realizing there is more to learn on this lesson of acceptance. I am reminded of the old Zen saying: “Before enlightenment – chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment – chop wood, carry water.” It’s like there are core spiritual concepts, and numerous levels to each of those concepts that we must pass through on the Path to Truth. Acceptance – it seems to be one of those “Holy Grail” type ones on my journey. The more of it I have, the more peace and serenity I experience, and the more the Light of Spirit can shine in my life.


Did I get it right, I wonder – my insights about it? Maybe it was saying that selfishness was the cause of all the darkness, and in recognizing that, the darkness was washed away. Or maybe it was more literal, and saying that I was being selfish in my own life, and in realizing that, and awakening to selflessness, the light burst forth. I’m sure this is one of those things I will ponder and meditate on for some time to come. But in this time of uncertainty and (as much as I would like to deny it) fear, it is comforting for me to remember that life isn’t really mine anyway. It’s like a rental – at some point, I’m going to have to return it. Rather than dread that day, or try to just keep it and go neurotic trying to avoid them taking it back, I can accept the situation, make the most of each moment I do have with it, and try to bring some love, kindness, and compassion to other people and living things. I can appreciate the fact that I get to borrow it for a while, and make the very most of the time, hoping to have as few regrets as possible when it comes time to turn it in. And who knows – maybe if I took good enough care of it, and did enough good stuff, I will get an even better rental next time, maybe even an ‘upgrade’ 😉

Before I Continue – Special Request

I realized today while pondering writing what I had planned to be Part II of this – I’m not sure that it’s really worth it, if I am writing it only for myself to read. I mean, I already know the stuff lol.

So I thought I would put this request out there. If you are reading this, and are interested to read a Part II to this, please leave a comment below, or click on the “Contact” page and send me a message. Even if there is only one other person reading, it will be worth it to me to write. If not, then I can let it go and write about other stuff. Also, lack of response might indicate that you enjoy reading some of my stuff, but aren’t really interested in hearing me drone on with my theories about what’s really going on, and wouldn’t blame you! Lol.

Either way, you know what to do – or not do : )

What’s Really Going On


I have been thinking about writing something like this for some time now, had always hoped to write an actual book, but I honestly didn’t think it would be about what I am going to write about now. I had always hoped to write some book about the spiritual path – about my experiences, and how things were moving towards some great enlightenment (for some people anyway); about the return of the Christ impulse, as well as all the other great Messianic archetypes; about how UAP, AI, quantum physics, and other advancing fields play into that enlightenment or awakening; about how we were the luckiest people since the dawn of humanity, because we would get to actually SEE that happen. And to be clear, I do still think all of that, and part of this will be about that. But there’s another side of the story – one that is becoming painfully, blatantly, and undeniably clear: we are in some very deep shit on this planet. I try to keep explicatives out of my speech and writing, because I think they are intellectually lazy, and there are more eloquent and less offensive ways to convey meaning that are child safe. But in this case, given the gravity of the situation, I just don’t think anything else quite captures the gravity and depth of concern I have

And I should offer a forewarning here – this is going to get pretty dark before the light. This is probably going to be like a dark night of the soul that is imposed on you, if you haven’t already reached some of these conclusions yourself. I’m not going to offer arguments for my assertions, so if you don’t believe in human-caused climate change, then you probably want to duck out now, because that is a large part of the first part of this. I will include some links to information from other sources, but again – I am not going to defend them or the content of what they say. I am a mystic, but I also believe very strongly in science, and the science is, has been, clear. If you don’t believe so – don’t let the digital door hit you on the way out.

Part 1 – A Current Assessment

Ok, now that I have that out of the way – I have to make an admission here and tell on myself. I have believed for a very long time, since I was a child actually, that I would live to see the apocalypse, the end of days, the second coming, whatever I thought it would be when I was a kid. I was raised in a Roman Catholic family, so those are the terms I was taught then, but the point remains – I thought I would live to see prophecy fulfilled. And for a while, it really scared the crap out of me, because I was never baptized, and in the Roman Catholic tradition, because of the teaching of original sin, I was going to straight to hell – do not pass go, do not collect $200 – and there was absolutely nothing I could do, no amount of Hail Mary’s I could say, to change that. That’s a whole story in itself, so I’m not going to get too deep into it. But suffice it to say, for whatever reason, I really believed I would get to see that horrible/wonderful event in my lifetime.

My spiritual path took a number of twists and turns, thank GOD, and suffice it to say, I no longer believe in that psychopathic, condemning, child judging god. My spirituality is based on all KINDS of different teachings and beliefs (see my post on the Religion Smorgasbord). But one thing I do still believe in, and surprisingly enough to me and many I think, is the prophecy about some kind of “end of days,” some return of a Messianic figure, some karmic reckoning for the human race. Again, I have a post out there about several different prophecies (Return of the Gods?) from Buddhist, Hopi, Jewish, and other traditions. Turns out it wasn’t just the Christian savior who was prophesied to return – there was a whole pantheon. In fact, I would suggest that MOST spiritual traditions have some concept of the end of the world coinciding with the return of – well, something, or someone, or a group of someones. And about that end of the world part –

Another disclaimer here first: I have been somewhat notorious for crying wolf for a big portion of my life. There have been many times when I thought the end was literally upon us – nuclear Armageddon in 80’s, Shoemaker-Levy 9 in ’94 (I thought it would miss Jupiter and hit earth lol), May 5th 2000 planetary alignment, December 21, 2012, and a lot of wars and conflicts and CMEs and solar flares in between that provided apoca-fodder. And of course the recent years, with covid and climate change are rife with doomy feelings.

But this last 2 weeks has been truly extraordinary, and honestly scared me. And I don’t say that lightly. I am not a person to live in fear. I have great faith, and I know ultimately, that which I am can never be threatened or destroyed. But I have kids, and grandkids, and like to think that they can know there will be a world that they can survive in when they are my age. Events of the last 2 weeks have been so astonishing, so over the top, and so truly apocalyptic, that I honestly fear for their future – and for their mental outlook. It has to be scary, utterly terrifying, to see what’s happening and wonder what the world will look like in 10 years, heck 5 years, let alone 20 or 40. So what was it that was so utterly terrifying, so jarring, as to make me think this?

To be sure, the heatwave experienced in the Pacific Northwest and Canada has been absolutely mind-blowing. I live in Phoenix, Arizona, and know all about heat. And I can say honestly that I can handle 115, 116 no sweat (bud pun, trying to inject a little lightness anyway). But 120F? 120 is hot. Anything over that is just brutal. So when I heard that it hit 121F, in Canada – CANADA, the “great white north” – where the normal high temp this time of year would be in the mid-70’s, it really shook me. And not just Canada, but Portland, OR hitting 116F, and records shattered all through the Pacific Northwest – temperatures even higher than we had down here in the Southwestern Desert. I keep using the word astonishing – just can’t think of a better one.


And it’s not just in the US and Canada. Europe and Russia are being broiled as well.


So it’s not just a US thing. I know I am often guilty of viewing things through a bit of a myopic lens, like what’s happening here in the US is apocalyptic. But to be truly apocalyptic in the greater spiritual sense, it really needs to impact the whole world. And this is – the climate changes are happening everywhere, rapidly and intensely. I’m not going to list articles from all over the globe, but easily could. All that is troubling for sure.

Then yesterday, I saw this:


This is the very town where it was 121F just a few days ago – now, it has been incinerated, literally burnt to the ground.

And then, the thing that really did it for me – that just SCREAMED at me, shook me to my core.

This is an area that experienced record shattering high temperatures, now burning with wildfires so intense that they are creating their own weather, which is spawning hundreds of thousands (yes, 100’s of THOUSANDS) of lightning strikes, which are then igniting more fires. If that isn’t terrifying, and the very embodiment of “apocalyptic,” I truly don’t know what is. My heart goes out to all the people, all the wildlife, all the plants, trees, etc up there. It is beyond sad, beyond tragic – it’s just horrible. And this isn’t some isolated event. All of western North America is in a severe drought – a giant tinderbox, ready to burn. Ugh.

Probably good to take a break here and remember – I said this was going to get pretty dark. But the thing is, it’s reality. It’s what is happening right now. It’s fact, truth. There is no denying, debunking or dismissing it. This is what is happening now. And regardless as to what someone believes about the cause, we are in it, and it is going to accelerate. But there IS a bright side to all this. I know, you’re probably thinking, “How in the hell could there be?” But there is, I promise, and we will get to that. But not before we grasp the full gravity of the situation we are in, and how we got here.

This is a great video that does just that, regarding the climate. Again, very sobering – but truth.

Turns out, the Christians were right – there really is, there has been for a long time, an “antichrist” driving us towards this destruction. But we have all been deceived, just as was foretold. I will explain more about that in my next post.

I don’t like to leave things on a down note, so here is a little prayer I wrote a while back. May it bring you some peace until my next post 🙂

There is a Power greater than all other powers.
There is a Force that cannot be stopped by any barrier or obstacle.
There is an Energy above all energies that interconnects and gives meaning to all that is.
That Power, that Force, that Energy is the unceasing Love of God and the forgiveness, mercy and compassion that flow forth from it into the hearts, minds, bodies and spirits of all things.
Let us all embrace this Power, this Force, this Energy.
Let it flow through us and become us as we relinquish our egos and their petty grievances and resentments.
Let us once again claim our Oneness and recognize the God in each other and in ourselves and reunify that we may, as One, be the perfect expression of God’s Love that we all desire to be in our deepest hopes and dreams.
Let it be so – now, and for always.

Until next time…

Coin-incidences aplenty – #synchrotrack

After posting that Alpha and Omega bit yesterday, I had a coin-incidence occur that was so blatant, so undeniable, so utterly implausible that I literally laughed out loud. Shortly after posting it (within 2 hours), I just happened to be listening to BMTG (Bob Marley Tuff Gong radio) on SiriusXM, when I caught the words the singer was saying, and I was dumbfounded –

“I am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end…”

WOW. Now I know – there are those who would say this is just a random occurrence, blah blah blah. But ask yourself honestly – how many times in the last year have you heard or used the terms “Alpha and Omega” together? And what exactly would the statistical chances be of writing about those terms, and then hearing a song – a song that I just found out was JUST released a few days ago, adding to the improbability! – on a REGGAE station of all places, of that EXACT title, that is literally about the very subject..??? I mean, even my wife, who is very skeptical about this stuff said, “Maybe the aliens are trying to talk to you?” Lol.

And yeah – backtracking a bit, here is a link to the twitter post from yesterday:

What I DIDN’T know, until literally just now, is that that song was just released on Friday!

So odds that were already astronomical just went up even more. If I had published that post last week, the song literally wouldn’t even exist on the airwaves yet. But wait – there’s more!

Turns out, someone else on Twitter has been experiencing some coin-incidences with Alpha and Omega too, and just happened to be looking into the meanings of Aleph and Tov just yesterday:

Ok, ok – this is just all too much. I mean, it really is, right? It can’t be just me who sees the utter implausibility of all these things happening by mere chance alone. Especially not to someone like myself who actually coined (bad pun) a special term (actually, my good friend Doug did – miss you brother) for special ones, “coin-incidence.” No, there is no amount of explaining or mathematical or statistical gymnastics that could make me think anything other than this is Source/God/Universe/Spirit/ETI/Higher Selves/Whatever communicating with us.

So I have decided that rather just sit back and go “Woooowwww….!” as I have been the last several years, I would like to actually DO something with the information. And not just me – I would like to see if other people would be interested in studying THIS phenomenon more closely. I know most of us are already really busy with all kinds of other stuff, and people are studying that ‘other’ phenomenon voraciously right now –

but what if all I asked is people to tag their Twitter posts so I could find them easily? I’m thinking/hoping that might work, and asking folks to tag super special synchronistic posts with “#synchrotrack” so that I can gather them up and see if I, or anyone else who’s interested, can gain any insights from them. For the #ufotwitter crowd, who knows – perhaps this is a manner by which ETI attempts to communicate with us? For us mystics, maybe it’s the Universe/Source? For others, maybe there is some as-of-yet-unknown kind of physics behind it? In any case, just like the other phenomenon, this is real, and as one of my Twitter friends said, “This is important.”

Of course I don’t have a huge following on Twitter, and I’m not sure most people know quite what to make of me, so this could be a bit of a flop. But even if just one or 2 other people participate, it will be 2-3 times as much info as I have on my own, so that’s a good thing! And as with everything in this realm – I am just doing what I feel I am being guided to do honestly. And whether or not anyone else does participate, I am listening, I am paying attention, and I am going to start taking it a little more seriously, see if I can figure out if there is deeper meaning and communication behind these events. I hope that others will join in the Quest – should be fun! #synchotrack , away!

The Alpha and the Omega – the beginning, and the end

It has been an insane week in the world of climate news. Yesterday, the high in Portland, OR was 115F. Absolutely astonishing. And there was a place in Canada that reached 116F! Just think about that for a minute – Canada. 116 degrees Fahrenheit. Anyone who tries to just brush that off as, “Oh, yeah – those things happen” is completely delusional. Those things do NOT happen. In fact, they haven’t ever happened before. The weather forecaster on CBS described the current heat dome over the Pacific Northwest as a “once in a millennium” occurrence, something you would expect to see only once every 1,000 years. And about that heat dome –

Anyone who knows me knows I am really into symbolism, and am constantly looking for little clues from the Universe, little messages sent to us through symbols, occurrences, and my personal favorite, coin-incidences (was just corresponding with someone on Twitter about them this morning). So my ears DEFINITLEY pricked up when I heard the words “Omega block” in reference to the historic heat dome that is literally baking the upper northwest.

Immediately, the words “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end” popped into my head. Now I understand that this – this specific heat dome – applies only to the US and Canada, so to make some greater prophetic interpretation of it would definitely be biased and America-centric. I would think that any prophecy that truly involves the whole world would pertain to – well, the whole world. But just because this Omega block is only here, now, that doesn’t mean the rest of the world isn’t seeing signs of their own. In fact, Europe and Russia are getting hammered with heat too. A quick perusal of this article will show just how bad it is there too:


It’s so hot, they have to use purple now to show the heat levels – we are way past the dark red:

I’m sure some people would read a post like this and think it is “doom n’ gloom.” And to be certain, it is disturbing, unsettling, and perhaps even a little frightening –

that is, if you only believe in the material aspect of the world, of reality. That’s not to say I’m not concerned, or even a little frightened, because I am. But I also look at what’s happening through the lens of ancient (and some not-so-ancient) prophecy. And I’m not just talking Biblical, although the Bible does have a quite a bit of prophetic content. No, if you read back over my posts (Return of the Gods?) you will see that I am talking about Hopi, Buddhist, Jewish, etc etc prophecies that all point to the same thing. And, for the UAP crowd, you could even take into account what the visitors told the kids at the Ariel school, the warning they gave.

So what does all this mean to me? It means that the time has come to truly decide what we want to believe in. Again, going to the Bible, I remember this verse – “And men’s hearts shall fail them for fear and for looking after those things which shall come on the world.” I think it’s pretty easy to see some of that is already happening. But I think of the other things that were said as well – about those who believe being saved; and not necessarily believing in Jesus – believing in God/Spirit/Universe/whatever. And personally, this has always been my favorite thing to read when I get feeling a little anxious. This was supposedly given by a Hopi elder, and I absolutely love it.

So if you are feeling a little concerned, maybe even a little frightened about the time we are in, please read this. This is the source of the ‘we are the ones we’ve been waiting for’ comment that often gets referenced (by me anway! Lol). Don’t let fear consume you. This was all foretold, and there is something beautiful waiting just on the other side. The old saying “No pain, no gain” is more of a spiritual axiom than people realize. So be strong, and know you are not alone. You never have been – never will be 🙂

A Hopi Elder Speaks

“You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour, now you must go back and tell the people that this is the Hour.  And there are things to be considered . . .

Where are you living?
What are you doing?
 What are your relationships?
Are you in right relation?
Where is your water?
Know your garden.
It is time to speak your Truth.
Create your community.
Be good to each other.
And do not look outside yourself for the leader.”

Then he clasped his hands together, smiled, and said, “This could be a good time!”

    “There is a river flowing now very fast.  It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid.  They will try to hold on to the shore.   They will feel they are torn apart and will suffer greatly. 

    “Know the river has its destination.  The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above water.   And I say, see who is in there with you and celebrate.  At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally, Least of all ourselves.  For the moment that we do,  our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt. 

    “The time for the lone wolf is over.  Gather yourselves!  Banish the word struggle from you attitude and your vocabulary.  All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration. 

    “We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”

— attributed to an unnamed Hopi elder

Hopi Nation

Oraibi, Arizona

The “religion smorgasbord” – part 2

I presented the first 3 courses of my 7 course spiritual meal a few days ago. Today, I present the next 4 – enjoy!

Hermeticism: the classic “As above, so below;” how the One becomes Many, and the Many, One; alchemy, which is really the process creating a perfected (or as close as possible) human.

It’s hard to actually state what it is Hermeticism addresses, because it’s profoundly deep, yet simple. That’s to say, there aren’t a lot of big words used, but there are multiple layers of meaning to the teachings. What I refer to with this reference is primarily the works of the “Divine Pymander,” which are ascribed to the legendary Hermes Trismegistus. There is also another view or aspect of Hermeticism, which takes into account several different teachings, including Kabballah. But that one is big enough, that it deserves its own entry (below.) Hermeticism is often associated with magick, and rightly so. When one reads the works, one can see the roots or flavors of almost all the world’s religions.

Kabballah: the “science” of God; the study of how an infinite being can manifest on a limited plane of existence; deep explanations of the different aspects and characteristics of the godhead.

I like to think of Kabballah as the “thinking person’s” spiritual study. I used to wonder a lot about God – whether it was possible to really know anything about him/her/it. How can a finite mind in a 3 dimensional body even begin to know what an infinite, boundless being/energy is really like? Well, Kabballah does probably the best job of any tradition of taking a deep dive into those very questions. If you hooked your house up directly to the power lines that run out of a generating station, it would be incinerated. The power is stepped down via a system of transformers. The same happens with the power of the Infinite, and Kabballah explains how.

The Templar Tradition (based purely on the book of the same title): the Quest for spiritual Truth; explanations of many of the deeper mysteries in the Western Tradition; the importance of the Divine Feminine; the origin of humankind.

When I came across the book “The Templar Tradition” in 1994, it truly was – is – like the Holy Grail to me. I had been studying spiritual wisdom, in particular the life of Christ, secret societies, Gnosticism, etc, and I had SO many questions. I actually found the book after a long string of synchronicities, which I refer to as “the coin-incidence,” and it provided many of the answers I was looking for, and in a way that resonated deeply with me as being Truth. It should be said here that I am not on some mission to inculcate a reverence for it into everyone, or create some movement based on it, etc. In fact, some people might read it, and find it lacking. But for me personally, it was life-changing, and defines my spirituality. It bears very little resemblance to all the modern media tales of the Knights Templar, and reveals the fact that one of the secret missions of the Templars was to unite the three great world religions at that time – Christianity, Islam, and Judaism. The book has been out of print for a long time, and sometimes, seems like it doesn’t even exist, outside of the copy I have lol. If you follow me on Twitter, I like to post little nuggets from it.

Quantum Physics (I know, I know, not technically a religion): describes possible mechanisms behind spiritual concepts like ‘everything is connected,’ ‘all is mind,’ ‘believing is seeing;’ a branch of science that no one can completely explain, and includes things that should not be possible given the current laws of physics.

Ok, gotta’ say right off the bat, hardcore materialists, scientists, and atheists HATE when spiritual people bring up quantum physics. They can’t stand the fact that such silly people as those who believe in a God would dare to reference something they OWN – the study of a branch of physics. But see, that’s the thing – they don’t own it, even though they think they do. And as much as they have tried, they still cannot completely explain how it is that the things at the quantum level can happen as they do. Concepts like entanglement, superposition, quantum tunneling – if you read up on them , they seem downright supernatural: the ability of 2 particles, even in different galaxies, being connected such that acting on one INSTANTLY affects the other, greatly exceeding the speed of light; an electron existing as a wave, but somehow “knowing” if it is observed, which causes that wave to collapse such that it becomes a particle – unobserved, it goes back to acting like a wave; the ability, based on the phenomenon of superposition, of a particle to traverse physical barriers, as if walking through walls. All of this is quantum physics – provable, actual effects at the quantum level.

And right now, if I was posting this on Facebook or another social media platform, the materialists would descend on this to explain how all of this is wrong – they can describe exactly how all these things happen, and there is nothing “mystical” about it. But the thing is, they can’t – not yet, not completely. They have resorted to theories like “multiple universes,” where every single time anyone makes any decision at all, an entirely new universe branches off, ad infinitum. Now, how that is an explanation – it certainly is not provable – I don’t quite know. But I guess it makes them feel better, so… Lol. Personally, I and many others believe that many of the answers to so-called paranormal or supernatural phenomenon lie in quantum physics. And if you’ve listened to any of the stuff from Lue Elizondo recently, talking about UAPs, he mentions “quantum processes” very often.

So there you have it – the spiritual smorgasbord that feeds my soul. Interestingly enough, the current focus on the UAP/UFO phenomenon really seems to be igniting synchroniticies again, for me and numerous others, from what I read on #ufotwitter – an online community of UAP/UFO enthusiasts that I have become part of. And I love it, because there are so many open-minded people who are part of it. I guess you kinda’ have to be to believe in the reality of those things. And to be certain, there are all different kinds of people, beliefs, viewpoints, motives. I personally believe that spirituality is a totally individual thing -there are as many different “religions” as there are people. It is up to each of us to find that perfect recipe that allows us to progress further on the path to Truth. If anything I have said here helps anyone in the tiniest way, then I will be very grateful indeed to be able to pay back Spirit for all the guidance and help I have received on my Quest for the Grail. Many blessings to you on your path to Truth.

The “religion smorgasbord” – a modern approach to spirituality

The first 3 courses of a 7 course meal

It’s almost inevitable that any time someone mentions anything about spirituality on social media, someone else will trot out the well-known claims about the damage done by religion. And to be honest, they’re not wrong. A lot of atrocities and and heartaches have been perpetrated “in the name of God.” Of course most often here in the West, that god is the Judeo-Christian one, and indeed, many people, entire societies, have been wiped out in service of appeasing that god – or at least, those committing the acts thought, or were told, that’s what their god wanted. In any case, the same argument could be made about other religions, but that’s not the point of this post. The point of this is to provide an answer to both those who think all religion is horrible, and those who think spirituality is inseparable from, or insignificant without, religion. And the easiest way for me to do that is to describe the spirituality I practice.

I discovered over many years of searching that, in my opinion, no one religion seems to cover all the bases when it comes to providing a set of spiritual guidelines, instructions, and ideals to pursue to achieve enlightenment, self-actualization, salvation – whatever you want to call it – a closer relationship with the Creator/Source/Truth/Spirit/The Universe/Whatever. Rather than provide some lengthy descriptions or personal anecdotes (have to save something to put in my memoir someday, right? Lol), I am just going to list out the ingredients I put on my spiritual plate to feed my soul that seem to satiate me, along with aspect of practice they seem particularly effective for – at least for me. So here, in no particular order, it is.

Christianity (in particular the New Testament, and Gnostic flavors): Love for all humans; forgiveness, healing and service to others; prayers, and how to pray, what to pray for.

It’s tough to beat the teachings of Jesus (what HE actually said, not how others interpret/ed it) when it comes to guidance on how to be of service to other human beings, how to view and treat them, and how to pray. I used to despise Jesus because of all the terrible acts that were committed in his name – until I actually read the New Testament, and just it, for myself. Dude got TOTALLY screwed, everyone basically did exactly what he told them not to. Once I realized that, and took to heart what he said – there’s just no better teaching on loving and forgiving others, and praying for them.

Buddhism: The nature of suffering, how it is intrinsic to existence; also down to earth guidance on how to actually live day to day; meditation – DEFINITELY the best for this.

Who doesn’t love the Buddha, especially among yoga practitioners, New Agers, and hipsters, am I right? But I’m guessing most of them have little idea what Buddha or Buddhism is really about. The 4 Noble Truths of Buddhism, the bedrock of the spiritual tradition, are all about suffering, and how it is basically just a natural part of physical existence – not something terrible to be avoided. In fact, we can’t really. We have to accept it. But there is a way to recognize what REALLY causes it (hint, it’s not external circumstances) and to move past that, or at least reduce it and use that energy in a more positive way. The Eightfold Path provides extremely simple instructions on how to live day to day, and when it comes to meditation, Buddhism is THE tradition to learn that in.

Native American (and many other indigenous) traditions: love for Mother Earth; connection to nature; gratitude and respect for living things; concept of no ownership of land – we all borrow from Mother Earth. [NOTE: I hope any Native people reading this will forgive me for oversimplifying and lumping together; I know there are many different tribes and traditions, and each has their own beliefs and customs; I am simply stating my takeaways, primarily based on Navajo, Lakota Sioux, and Hopi teachings as I understand them]

There are simply no other traditions better than those of many indigenous peoples when it comes to actually respecting Mother Earth, seeing Her as a living being, and recognizing that we are only alive because she gives of herself – through plants, water, animals, etc. I didn’t even realize what I was missing in my spiritual practices until I was blessed enough to actually get to know the grandson of a Navajo Medicine Man and connect with him on a very deep level. All humans would do good to rekindle that connection with our earth and all its life – especially in these times.

These are the first three courses. In my next post, I will outline the next 3. Stay tuned – stay hungry!